C'est la vie.

last night i was going through my memories of high school.
one of the sweetest memories i remembered was when
i clumsily dropped all my text books in the hallway and
some random boy rushed towards me picked them all up
and handed them to me.

i wish more boys would do that instead of just laughing
whenever a girl does something clumsy. just simply help them.

i’m sorry but everything has been going on a downward spiral for me.
sorry for all these depressing-ish posts; but it’s how i feel and it’s what
i want to blog.

so here i am, 2AM doing my apparel 2 homework.
sewing up a petite dress that’s due tomorrow.
not understanding the directions.
oh and i have to cut out my knit markers
and study for my collars quiz.

i feel so stressed over everything.
all i want to do is lay down, blast some adele
and cry til i sleep.

i’m tired of being fake to people over here.
i can’t keep up my smiles, laughs, and looking okay
when inside i just want to smack my head against a wall or something.

and it just gets worse and worse.
i have class at 12, but i get up at 9:30, get ready and be done
by 11, head to school and do whatever…but it’s hard to get up
and get motivated for school when you sleep at 4AM
and not even wanting to wake up because reality is too fucked up for you.

i need sleeping pills to get a good rest.

oh and tomorrow i have to finish my practice final which i haven’t
looked at and finish 5 dresses on fucking time consuming illustrator.
there isn’t enough time in the day for all this shit.

oh and on top of all this, i lost my obey internship.
i might have to wait til next season or summer…..

everything is just fucking up for me lately.
i need to give up. i can’t do this.

surprise surprise, i run http://haute-fashion.tumblr.com/

follow it.

i have a habit of pulling my hair randomly.
i used to have a bald spot because of it;
&that’s why i have such thin hair

i swear sometimes this phone pisses me off.
i use the navigation/map application to lead me around LA
but why does it tell me to take the FREEWAY
(i have to take the 101 hollywood) to get to somewhere
that the normal streets will take me that’s supposed to be
5 minutes away?
and WHY does LA have the most one way streets?
and chance-for-chance lights?
i live on figueroa/ceasear/sunset and it’s gets
trafficy and i’m over LA drivers, but i’ve turned into one myself.

but anyways, i think i’ll enjoy LA by myself tomorrow.
maybe go to the grove, find a car washer place because
my bright red car looks brown now. and maybe i
can walk around and find a starbucks or sushi near by.

anyone recommend good places around downtown/hollywood?